Friday, December 26, 2008

Where Have I Been?????

Can it possibly be since September since I've been here??? I guess it has. I planned to keep this updated once a week but since September life got in the way. Now things are finally the way they are going to be for a while and I plan again to update once a week. I have been busy to say the least. Instead of going back to September I'll just go into the last few weeks and tell you the latest fiasco.......

Well my poor mom ends up in ER with appendicitis at age 72. I guess she just couldn't wait any longer! Well ER doc checked her and told her they'd do the surgery that night and she'd go home the next am. Then the surgeon came in and said he wasn't sure it was appendix becuase her WBC were so very high. He keeps her in overnight for OBSERVATION................Loads her up with morphine and says he'll be in to see her at 5 am. Well the morphine zonked her out. He shows up at 10 am and the darn thing had BURST!!!!!!!! SO MUCH FOR OBSERVATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She than ended up in the hospital for 9 days of pure hell. They also diagnosed her with COPD which we knew something was wrong. She had lost a lot of weight and was under 90 pounds and very frail and had trouble breathing but would not go to the doc. Well seeing her so sick when I never ever saw my mom sick was really really hard. She was so embarrassed and shameful and guilty and talked to me and said it was all her own fault becuase she smoked for over 50 years. I tried to talk to here that in her day and age in the 50's everyone smoked. Well she should have known better. She was so very sick. After about 9 days they sent her home on oxygen for full time for 3 weeks. She hasn't been out of the house and she is very unhappy being cooped up on this O2 and hates it. Her being the Christmas person that does all the cooking and entertaining she didn't have the energy to do anything. So for Christmas Eve I did the traditional Clam Pot Pie so we didn't miss a beat and Christmas dinner my brother Todd did the turkey, Nina his wife did the bread/potatoe filling and I did the sweet potatoes. Dad did the veggies. We didn't miss one thing this year. Every thing went perfect. I think it all gave us an idea of what she goes through every year preparing all this stuff. Now we have New Year's Day with the Pork and Kraut which I think I'll be doing. (Can you tell we're PA Dutch????)!!!!

So that was the recent fiasco. There was so much more. There was a period of loss I went through and I am happy to say I am now through it and even though it seems awful at the time in the end it's a lesson and you learn and realize that it leaves you feeling so much better and blessed that it happened and the loss it well...................lost! If that makes any sense, it probably does to many of you. Time heals all wounds and it took time to understand why and see the bigger picture and now I can honestly say I am blessed to have these people in my life move on and now I can reach a newer calm and contentment. Life is difficult. Sometimes choices are hard but it's worth it to sieve through the sand to find the pearl.

So now I'm back hooking, knitting, punching and trying to balance all three. I am going to a gym now 3 times a week too so that's hard finding time. I need to try to find the balance. I enjoy the gym though. I go with a good friend and we work hard and then get in the pool and just relax and talk and laugh and have fun.

So with that being said I would like to wish everyone a wonderful, joyous, happy and healthy new year and hope 2009 brings you all the blessings you wish for. I will try to update weekly and show you what I'm doing. Much more pics of the family and pets and friends and what I'm doing. I don't sit much anymore. I hope you all had a very merry Christmas and have a wonderful safe Happy New Year. Blessings my friends.........................Cyndi